Overthinking Ruins Everything.

It's been a long time coming, but here's the undoing of myself and a previous significant other spelled out:

1) "I love the stability you provide" does NOT mean that someone is clinging to you because you are the only "stable" thing in their life. It merely means that they like the fact that you are a generally mild person who does not flare up like herpes after a frat party. It doesn't mean that I need you in any semblance of the word, nor does it mean I myself am unstable.

2) Just because I love being around your family more than my own doesn't mean I'm searching for a place to belong, it just means that I'm glad that they don't dislike me. The part where I don't get along with my family? Maybe you should get your facts straight about what led to that before you get all up in arms over something that you hardly know anything about.

3) I "don't take enough things seriously". Sure, but why should I? If I took everything seriously, this ever-changing wonder you see before you would lose one of the many colors of its wings. Don't ask me to "grow up" and then think I'll be interesting.

4) You don't and will probably never understand the depths of "growing up too fast" that I've gone through. You may think you tried to understand it, and that's cool and all, but it's no substitute for seeing what I've seen, and feeling what I've felt.

5) You'll call my feelings childish, borderline petulant. Obviously at your advanced age of +/-23, you've forgotten what an eighteen-year old senior in high school is like. Or if you can remember, you didn't have the same adolescence I did. That doesn't mean mine is valued any less or any more than yours.

6)You never had to "fight my battles for me", but a little chivalry would've been appreciated. If another man, no matter how close to you he may be, insults your lady partner, it is your obligation to correct the man, not encourage him by calling her "some girl".

I know this seems like just a tangent by a sixteen-year old, but hear me out kind readers. This is the result of thinking long and hard about why things just didn't work, and why it felt so good to lose in the end. Taking nothing but a shard of my self worth, I kept walking, and I realized that the stagnation wasn't just me OR just him. It was us.

Sometimes people are given a gift and complicate it more than they need to. This was a clear case. We met as coworkers. We chose to push it, and it exploded.

That's all there is to it. And the truth is, I'm not sorry to see it go. There was too much ache in the end.